Hair

I am struggling with the issue of hair.  Hair is driving me absolutely crazy.  Since mine has grown out a bit,  my whole lifestyle has had to change to accommodate it!  I envisioned a new hairstyle, only you can't get to that point from a pixie cut, so one has to first grow their hair in order to really have a new lovely salon haircut.

  

My hair is currently in between.  It is no longer a pixie.  It is not entirely short.  It is not yet a bob.  It is not really long.  It is sadly somewhere in between the land of  lovely and obscene.

It is unbearable to me, unless I roll it.   [I have to roll it because I cannot stand it flat!!  I need to poof it up!] Therefore, I spend an incredible amount of time doing just that,  but how that turns out is completely unpredictable.  It depends on a number of hair factors, like if I blow it dry, or let it dry naturally,  if I use conditioner or not, etc.  The whole rolled hair result is a roll of the dice!
If I don't have much time in the morning,  I'll take a shower the night before, so I have time for the rolling detail!  Hair is ruling my life completely!  It is clearly more trouble than it is worth!

I imagined ending up with a bob, rather than a pixie.  I've had a pixie for most of the past forty years or so, with a couple of rare occasions of letting it grow for a while before cutting it again.  I've been cutting my own hair since I was nineteen.  So, honestly, the whole matter of going to a salon for a style is a foreign concept for me.  I wonder if I will ever actually do that?

My history has been that one day I wake up and simply cannot stand it for another minute, and get out my scissors and do my thing.   At the moment, I'm not sure exactly what my thing is, or is going to be.  I'm in between things.

I have just completed an on-line a study of 'hairstyles for older women'.  The styles are all over the place, so that was no help at all. Pixies, bobs, short, long, mid-length, curly, straight, edgy, curly, chopped.

Maybe I'll get through just one more day with hair.  I am feeling just a wee bit attached to it.