Loss of Faith

I have not lost my faith in God, nor Jesus Christ, not even the church.   I have lost my faith in my government.  Over the course of the past few weeks, or months, or maybe even longer,  I see that Congress no longer works in any meaningful way.   Or, at least the way it works does not work for me.

Clearly, now the language shows the truth of the war.   It operates as if it were nothing more than two sides at war with one another.  "Total surrender".  "Fought the good fight".  "Win the battle".  It is a game of winners and losers.

The real losers are the American people.  Our government now has no credibility, at least to me. I also believe that any credibility with other nations has been seriously compromised.  Decisions are not made on the basis of what is best for the people, or the nation, but rather the party.  Decisions are made based on elections, and power.  And compromises are good only for a matter of weeks.

I never wanted to be cynical.  It is not in my nature.  I prefer to be hopeful and optimistic and cheerful. I have none of those feelings any more when it comes to the governing of this wonderful nation at this time in our history.

Actually, I suppose the divide goes much further and much deeper even than that, into society and culture, and religion.

My husband's advice is not to worry about things I cannot control.   I don't watch or listen to very much of it,  but I have not been able to completely detach and let go emotionally of all the turmoil.  How I wish I could!  I wish I didn't care at all.  I care too much.  I'm not so cynical yet that I don't remember what it feels like to be proud and patriotic.

I have lost my faith in my government.  And I'm not sure that I see any way of getting it back. It is a sad day.